Friday, September 20, 2013

Wild Things

Yes, my children were jumping on the trampoline at 7:30AM this morning. Mainly because they were driving me crazy in the house, so, I sent them outside to jump out that energy. I wanted to drink my coffee in peace and pick up the house a bit before I send them to school. Sorry to my neighbors that actually get to sleep in (I have no idea what that means anymore.) Your welcome, if your alarm didn't go off; my children are great alarm clocks, welcome to my life. No, they are not dying. This is how boys play. They wrestle, yell, fake cry and then get over it and move on. I do little monitoring during this time because I believe in giving them space to work things out. I will step in if blood is involved. Yep, just another day in the life of raising 3 little wild things.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Pinterest Mommy Depression

Over the last couple of years as Pinterest has grown there has been a new sort of "depression" happening among moms. As you search Pinterest you realize as a mom that you aren't organized, don't have cute "mom" clothes, you aren't educating your children the way you should be, your house doesn't look like it should be in Better Homes and Garden magazine, you eat terribly, don't plan meals well, aren't great at saving money or organizing your finances, and on and on the list goes.

I have good news for you! You aren't super mom and the only person putting those expectations on you is yourself - not Pinterest or Facebook or any other media source. You belong to God. He created you and thinks you are beautifully and wonderfully made for His purposes. I have come to a place in my walk with Jesus to seek him. Seek Him to make my calling clear - yes I am a momma to 3 crazy boys (and a 17 year old exchange student as well) but, I am not defined by what I can or cannot do. I am defined by my grace filled relationship with my Savior and my Father. So next time you feel inadequate due to all those awesome pins on Pinterest call out to Jesus ask him to save you from yourself.

Each day I wake up and ask God what He has for me for the day. It's freeing! It's a relief to know that I don't need to have it all planned out and perfect. I will fail but when I fail it makes my need for Jesus huge and that speaks volumes to the world. Our Father is good and He cares about your heart. So, draw close to Him and He will tell you what He desires for your life as a mommy. He wants you to be real about where you are at and will call you to live a life that glorifies Him. Now that's freedom! Freedom from Pinterest mommy depression.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

A Perfect Yard

I was at a friend's house about a month ago and as I examined her perfectly kept lawn and flower beds I was overcome with jealousy. Jealousy because everything about her yard was perfect. No flowers were dying, the grass was green and there was fresh dirt in every flower bed. The jealousy came and went pretty quickly as God reminded me in that moment who I am to Him. His daughter, who He loves and has called to live a life that looks crazy to most. God said, "Would you rather have a perfect yard or be loving people so that they can come to know me?" My heart overflowed with great joy in that moment. I have been called to live on mission in Tacoma to lead others to Jesus - no matter how messy, ugly, hard and crazy that is, it brings great joy to live for Jesus. When we moved to Tacoma to help start Soma Communities I had no idea what we were in for but, I wouldn't trade one moment of it. The verse God has given me this year is Matthew 10:39, "Whoever finds his life will lose it and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it." Living on mission for Jesus means dying to yourself so that you can have life and freedom in Jesus. As our Missional Community in South Tacoma loves on the football players at Lincoln HS this  year I am reminded to die, die daily to my comfort and my idea of what life should look like.

As Todd and I dropped off one of the football players at home tonight my heart broke for him. He is a good kid who comes from a messed up family. God quickly told both of us in that moment to be family to him, no matter what the cost, be family to this young man. I realized how much I need the Holy Spirit to transform my heart in this season. I need to surrender it all and allow the Holy Spirit to transform me as we care for these young men and young women at Lincoln. There is such a great need and as believers we have an amazing Father who has all the answers. So, pray. Pray that God would grip your life and you would learn to lose your life daily for the sake of leading others know Jesus. If you lose your life for Jesus you will find it and that is way better than having a perfect yard.